Thursday, July 02, 2009

If I Could?

My Mind has been blank for a while, as you can see it takes me ages to check and make an update on this blog. Although I am not really that busy. I was not really in the mood to do anything. I even quit my job because I have been really sick. I lost so much weight and I’m on anti depression pills. Often time I got scared; it feels like I’m on a very dark small cave with lots of bats. Every time I’m alone in the house I start crying, it is one of the reason also why I don’t like to be in the house alone because it seems like I am going crazy. I know lately I made some not so good decision in life the reason why I am experiencing like this right now. But if ever if I could turn back the time, I wouldn’t because I don’t believe in regrets. For me everything we do in our lives was appropriate and I think when a person makes a wrong decision, and learns from it, he will most definitely not repeat his mistake. Some of the mistakes we make are extremely grave, yet, as long as we are sure to learn from them, it was worth all the pain and grief. However, if I were granted the opportunity to change just one thing in my life so far, it would have to be learning how to be strong and learn how to handle things properly.

3 gimme some love:

MsRay said...

Hang in there, Ivy. The Lord is just a prayer away.

Michelle2 said...

I feel sad reading your new post. I can feel how lonely you are when you're by yourself. There's light at the end of the tunnel Iv's so hang in there and ask God's guidance. Take care! :)

Tina said...

Unfortunately i havent got the time to maintain the Drop Stars blogroll anymore, so i am removing it from my website.

If you could remove your badge too i would be grateful.

Thank you again for being my Drop Star, and i will 'drop by' again soon :)